It is another decadent day…
I find myself hard to focus on my studies. I am always distracted by some irrelevant matters. I try every means to overcome it but still does not work.
Then, I am reminded of my senior who takes care of me like a father. Yesterday he shared me something about “a boy”( who turned out to be the reflection of himself).
There was a boy. He lived in a small village. His family was so poor that he even could not afford his tuition fee in primary school and the beginning of every semester became the hardest days to go through which means he had to borrow money from relatives. The most pathetic thing happening to him was that he had a father who was addicted to drinking and gambling. Even though their life could not make ends meet , his father still gambled excess and the man even countered the family’s only surviving furniture for gambling. In the end, the house was totally empty. The worst thing happened when he was nearly ten years old. At that time, the boy’s father betrayed his wife and did something illegal resulting in his days in jail----leading the most tragic suffering----the boy’s mother attempted to suicide----and not only for one time, but several times! Those things had remarkable influence in the dedicate heart. Maybe it explained his bad behavior later in his secondary school. He used to escape from school and be addicted to the computer games. Then, one day, suddenly he realized it was wrong and turned over a new leaf.
Perhaps it was those misery memories that fostered his ambitions. He told me that he had so many dreams to realize and he enjoyed the feeling of striving after his bright future.
Compared with him, I know I am lucky. Although I brought up by my mother, I led a happy childhood. On the contrary, I do not have the ambition as he does.
It is time I thought about the future.
I do not want to leave myself an opportunity to regret in ten years. I do not want to be burdened with relationship which makes me to lose myself.
I believe I will find a balance between my studies and my emotional life.
what a good senior! And I also find some reflections of myself from his story. Try hard to know what kind of life you want in your future and best wishes to you!
ReplyDeleteWe are all to some extend confused about ourselves and about our future, however, as long as we know what we want and insist onto it, we can always get it. I sometimes admire you for your wonderful life!
ReplyDeleteIn this recess week, i sometimes find it difficult to concentrate on study.Perhaps many people have such problem. We struggle with ourselves. But I believe we can control ourselves and do not leave the pity.
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