Recently, my parents told me they will come to see me with my grandparents on 22nd, July. When I heard the news, I come up with complicated feelings. Sometimes, I really miss home, but I can adjust myself well to focus on my life here. However, I can feel my parents and grandparents miss me much, even more than me. Since I told them I couldn’t return home this summer, they had been considering to come. It is already their second trip during half the year. One trip here is not cheap. For six people, it may cost about 40 thousand RMB. They told me they would like to see me as well as travel in Singapore. I hope they can play happily here. However, I’m also sure if I go back, it costs little, several thousand RMB. Although my parents asked me not to care about money for many times, I still feel strange, maybe happy and guilty, when they spend so much coming to see me.
Maybe it is my problem, also an old problem for me, I think too much and I need to put down something. I always remind myself to be responsible. So, I always care much; some are necessary, but some are unnecessary details. More than one of my friends has pointed it out for me. Every some weeks, I will feel a bit loss at how much I should care about things around me. I try to think carefully to avoid failure both for me and my friends. But at the same time, I have to be careful not to be so worried. Someone said that I know much and see much. Sometimes, I just want to know less. Maybe it is time for me to put down something and relax more…
I am troubled by this problem, too. Every time I call my parents, they will ask me when I can go home. However, actually, I do not quite want to go home because the vocation is too short and it must be a tiring trip. But I do not dare to tell them. I do not want to hurt them. Then my parents offered to come to see me. It is even more troublesome, I think. Even now, I am still struggling about this problem.
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