Before the college entrance examination

Last night, when I made a phone call to my mother, it suddenly occurred to me that it is quite near to the college entrance examination. My brother is to take it in no more than ten days’ time. I was worried about him, so I asked how he had been prepared. However, the answer was not satisfying. He only scored three hundred plus for the latest test, the full mark being seven hundred and fifty. It was really not satisfying to any extend.

Also, I heard about how my aunty worried about my brother. She had been asking some teachers to help my brother for a long time, but it did not seem to work so much. She had been spending a lot of money, and of course, much of her energy. Every time she found my brother playing or absent-minded, she could not control herself to scold him. While maybe because of the pressure, my brother also could not hold himself. Most of time, it ended in a big quarrel or even a fight. That college entrance examination is too important for us that we can hardly bare the pressure. It is not only a test of knowledge, but also a test of psychological endurance. Unfortunately, lots of us lose in the second part even before the test starts.

Now I regret a lot. When I was having my summer holiday, I should have helped him more with his studies and tell him how to deal with the pressure. However, what I did was just thinking of myself. I wanted to be free and did not want to be bothered by him. How could I do that! If I paid more attention to him, maybe things could change a lot. Anyway, I cannot do anything now.
I thought of when I was taking the exam. Although I did not show any anxiety to anyone, actually, I did worried a lot. And I knew that my parents must be no less anxious than me, too. I can fully understand what my aunty and my uncle are thinking about. Perhaps, they did not pay enough attention to my brother’s study before. Perhaps, they are kind of worried and also kind of regretful. I think I am really lucky compared with my brother. At least I did not struggle that much. Moreover, I have managed to be here in Singapore, which I think is a really good choice. Thinking of this, I think I will not complain much.